Friday, March 31, 2017

First night off!!

And…I FINALLY got to watch DWTS, the premiere ūüôā

I really liked it…some of my favorites so far…Nancy Kerrigan, Simone Biles, the baseball player (can’t remember his name!), the bull rider (also can’t remember his name), the actress from Glee (again, can’t remember her name), the singer from 5th Harmony (geesh…again, no name coming to me!), the football player (no name again). I’m SO happy that Emma finally has someone who has a chance to get her to the finals…she’s one of my favorite dancers!! ¬†I’m really anxious to see what happens this season!!!

While I was watching the show, Kimm was chatting with her friend.

We ended the night with Queer as Folk and a snack.

I was MORE than ready to head up to bed…love getting to go to bed to catch up on sleep on that first night off.

Meditations from the Mat (Day 90)…

~~contentment is a means to become whole, a means for coming into the deep state of connectedness that is yoga

~~this is why we need self-study, svadhyaya — we cannot just get this deep wisdom by moving mindlessly throughout the day

~~every day we are bombarded by messages and the sensory overload is crazy

~~we need to take every opportunity to get “better programming”

~~what better reason to practice svadhyaya

Things making me happy today: now having 2 days off!!!, finally getting to watch DWTS!!!, getting to go to bed to catch up on my sleep


New RUG!!

Thursday, March 30, 2017

Another day of work done…not too bad again.

I slept pretty good…at least I startled awake when the alarm went off.

Dinner was a fave — homemade pizza.

And then, after dinner, the UPS driver made a late delivery…our new living room rug ūüôā ¬†We both LOVE it. ¬†It is 5 x 7, 100% polyester, soft to the feet feel, vintage/worn look with muted colors of cream/brown/yellow. ¬†I hope it will wear well, vacuum easy, and hide any puke/pee stains (hey, thinking realistically with these animals!)

I’m going to try to take a good picture of it when we have better light. ¬†That may not be tomorrow as we’re expected to get snow…BOO!

But for now, I have one night on. ¬†Tomorrow night I’m excited because I think I’ll finally be able to watch that first episode of DWTS!!

Meditations from the Mat (Day 89)…

~~expose yourself constantly to writers, singers, movies, teachers that light your fire

~~just as tapas gives us permission to be enthusiastic about our lives, svadhyaya gives us permission to stay plugged in

~~svadhyaya is about connecting to the energy you find healing and inspiring

Things making me happy today: new living room rug!!, watching Izzy play with her ball, homemade pizza, covering up with my blanket, hot shower

Boring life.

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Seriously, I have a pretty boring life.

Work (which was fine).

Sleep (which was okay).

Eat (which was good…leftover potato soup…super easy because all I had to do was re-heat!).

Nap (which was so-so…just don’t feel rested).

Dishes (which were SO tough…NOT…3 total dishes…love it!)

Write blog (which I didn’t even know what to write because my life is so boring).

Get ready for work (which is so repetitive).

Well, that’s that…my boring life in a nutshell.

BTW…found out that Six Flags will be hosting some kind of light show this November and December on weekends and selected days (probably to compete with Bright Nights in Springfield). ¬†Sounds like it would be fine, EXCEPT…the traffic. ¬†So now at a time of year when we normally would not have traffic, we will. ¬†Which normally would not affect us in the least because we ARE homebodies most of the time, but now we love to get out and look at the lights around town. ¬†So instead of just being able to get up and go and do it whatever night we want, we’ll have to always think about…will Six Flags be open…how will the traffic be? ¬†SIGH. SIGH. SIGH.

Meditations from the Mat (Day 88)…

~~each step forward in our journey is a step inward

~~with yoga, you shed the layers of armor you create to protect the false ¬†self we present to the world…as the armor falls away, the old fears that created the armor in the first place are there to confront you

~~remember that fear and old behavior accompanies growth, that such regressions show that we are drawing nearer to our truth

~~darkness and confusion are part of the path

~~yoga is a journey INward, it is not a workout, it is a workIN

~~the only real movement is return…this is the point of spiritual practice…to open our hearts and focus our awareness so that we can know what we already know

Things making me happy today: blue, blue sky of morning with white puffy clouds, easy dinner (re-heating!), very few dishes (3!!), reading a good book



Tuesday, March 28, 2017

Today I spent learning some stuff.

It was nice ūüôā

However, it was a little rough going at start. ¬†When you have to get up at 6 am, it’s always a little rough! ¬†I slept so-so, since I kept looking at the darn clock every time I woke up, to see how much more time I could sleep, hoping I would not oversleep!

When the alarm did go up, I popped up, brushed my teeth, headed downstairs, took Izzy out, made my breakfast and ate it…and then was running out of time…I was not able to drink my coffee!!! ¬†Instead I got in the shower, fixed myself up and then heated my coffee up to go.

My good friend picked me up and we were off to Springfield for our day-long learning event — Reasoning with Unreasonable People: Focus on Disorders of Emotional Regulation. ¬†Wow, there was a lot of information! ¬†And it was SO interesting seeing where I fell in some of the ways of communicating. ¬†I feel like I have so much to review in order to be able to utilize all the information properly.

The seminar was from 9 am until 4 pm. ¬†We got there about 8 am so we had time to drink our coffee and chat ūüôā ¬†That was probably the best time of the whole day. ¬†Sometimes it is just nice to talk with someone who understands you.

When we left, it was rainy. ¬†I was glad to see Kimm when I got home. ¬†Even though it was just one day, I missed spending time with her. ¬†We ordered out pizza (our plan) and went to go get it. ¬†It was delicious!! ¬†Kimm said it was the first time all week she felt full ūüôā

Now I’m writing my blog, and then heading up to take a nap since I have to go to work tonight. Hopefully I won’t be TOO tired since I’ve been up all day.

Meditations from the Mat (Day 87)…

~~at the core of self-study is non-attachment

~~attachment to the external holds you back; non-attachment frees my physical, intellectual, and spiritual powers so that I can be careful, alert, fluid, receptive and clear

~~in the clear open space of a non-attached mind, reality can be perceived

~~self-study is a paradigm shift — it is when we let go of the results and embrace the process

Things making me happy today: sitting and sipping coffee while chatting with a friend, the opportunity to learn something NEW, pizza out!, the sound of rain on the roof

Homemade Potato Soup … wonderful!

Monday, March 27, 2017

Today we woke up to rain and it turned out to be a very lazy (in a good way!) day.

First up…breakfast — a banana shared with Kimm, English muffin with peanut butter and jelly, coffee with caramel cream. ¬†YUM! ¬†I actually used real coffee today (not the Kcup) and I have to say I really LOVE smelling the grounds…something I think you miss with the convenience of Kcups. ¬†We actually both bought non-Kcup coffee to use in our reusable Kcups and mine was New York Roast Chock Full O’Nuts…it was really good.

I started a new book this morning…The Pact by Jodi Picoult. ¬†I had read this years and years ago but I had seen it offered for $1.99 on Bookbub a while back and so I bought it…I’m enjoying re-reading it (it’s been so long I don’t remember all about it). ¬†Then when I was on the computer I checked out another book from the online library (Mrs. Grant and Madame Jule by Jennifer Chiaverinni). ¬†I like reading multiple books at a time…keeps things interesting ūüôā

After a long hot shower, we had lunch — mini pizzas and an apple…all while finishing up Season 3 of Grace and Frankie…it was good. ¬†I’m sad we’ll have to wait another year for more episodes!

A new recipe for dinner and it was excellent…definitely a keeper. ¬†Based off this Creamy Potato Soup recipe from one of my favorite blogs (I made only minimal changes, mostly cutting out the bacon).

Homemade Potato Soup


4 tablespoons butter

2 medium onions, cut finely

3 stalks celery, cut finely

2 medium carrots, cut finely

4 small cloves garlic, cut finely

1/4 cup flour

3 cups whole milk

4 cups veggie broth

1 tsp salt

2 potatoes, peeled and chopped into small pieces

To make:

Add butter to large pot over medium heat.

Add onion, celery, carrot and saute until translucent, approximately 10 minutes.

Add garlic and heat until fragrant.

Add flour and stir until absorbed into vegetables.

Add milk in 1/4 cup additions, stirring after each addition, until all is added.

Add veggie broth and salt.

Add potatoes.

Simmer for 40 minutes until potatoes tender.


(makes four full bowls, approximately 450 calories per bowl)

After dinner we got the trash out…it was a lot…heavy.

And now just relaxing before bed. ¬†Tomorrow I have my nursing educational class with a close friend. ¬†I can’t wait to see her and to hopefully learn a lot. ¬†The only negative…out the door by 7:30 am!! ¬†(thank goodness she is picking me up!)

Meditations from the Mat (Day 86)…

~~”It has been well said that all true art is a contagion of feeling; so that through the true reading of true books we do indeed read ourselves into the spirit of the masters.” — Charles Johnston

~~do the work, practice svadhyaya, turn the results over to the spirit of the universe

Things making me happy today: breakfast, smelling ground coffee in the can, Charlie purring between us on the couch, new recipe — potato soup, cooking with Kimm!

Kimm’s hungry…

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Two nights on…now done. ¬†Love when I only have two on…feels so fast! ¬†And now that it is all over I can say it…it was a slow night and much needed.

I was happy to come home, chat with Kimm and then head to bed.

Dinner was easy — quesadillas (with onions, green peppers, mushrooms and cheese).

Funny story…so Kimm has now started to count calories too…she wants to lose weight (even though I think she looks good!) and is impressed by my weight loss (however, 30 lbs in 7 months, although it makes me VERY happy, is not a fast track weight loss plan!).

BUT…now that she is counting calories, and seeing how fast they add up, and seeing how much she has to cut out to stay within her calorie count…there are a couple of things happening…first, she is hungry! ¬†Totally understandable. ¬†I’m hungry a lot of the time too! ¬†Second, she has a better understanding of how I’ve felt the last seven months. ¬†It’s never very much fun to always feel like you are never full, can’t indulge, get irritated by others who just eat what they want. ¬†SIGH. ¬†But…the weight loss is real. ¬†So she is determined. ¬†And I am proud of her.

I told her she’ll need to invest in a diet journal like I have…so she can write down “I’m hungry!” just like I do!!

Anyways…needless to say, she felt the quesadillas were lacking in flavor since they had MUCH less cheese on than she is used to! ¬†But I think her tastes will change with time.

My after dinner nap was wonderful.

Then my after-dishes nap was wonderful too!

We finished the night with three episodes of Grace and Frankie…only two more left ūüė¶ ¬†That show is really good!

We headed up to bed hungry (pretzels are not much of an evening snack!)

Meditations from the Mat (Day 85)…

~~yoga is the practice of self-awareness

~~everything is a means for self-study

~~life will teach you about yourself

~~you must be willing to take responsibility for what you learn

~~to commune with your reality is to draw nearer to your desired deity

Things making me happy today: an easier night at work, watching Grace and Frankie, having the night off!, a cozy home, getting to sleep at night


Flight booked to WI (FINALLY)

Saturday, March 25, 2017

I made it through the night with minimal issues (just one minor, but kind of time-consuming thing at the end of the shift — programming a PCA pump for a CMO (comfort measures only) patient — which involved getting in touch with the day hospitalist, obtaining an order, going to the basement to get the special pump, programming the pump with the nurse, re-priming the medication and explaining everything to the patient’s family. ¬†Took about 1/2 hour in total, but I felt better not passing it along to the next supervisor and knowing it was done properly.

Left the hospital about 9 am, then stopped at Price Rite for some groceries. ¬†HAD to pick up some asparagus because the price was excellent — $1.77/lb!!

Was so glad to walk in the house and just be home. ¬†Put the groceries away, chatted with Kimm, ATTEMPTED to buy my ticket home to WI for May on Travelocity again and AGAIN ran into major issues…would NOT accept the credit card. ¬†I was getting SO frustrated and just gave up. ¬†Kimm suggested trying to buy one way tickets through the individual airlines and I agreed…AFTER I got up.

So to bed I went.

Slept pretty good but not long enough.

Dinner was so good — veggie burgers, steak fries, asparagus! (with espresso beans for dessert) … all while watching the new Grace and Frankie episodes!

And then after dinner I FINALLY got my tickets purchased. ¬†BIG SIGH OF RELIEF. ¬†I went to the Delta and United websites and it was actually so much easier to do it from there. ¬†I will NEVER purchase a ticket via Travelocity again. ¬†I’ll just use it to check prices.

I’m SO happy to be able to cross “buy WI ticket” off my to-do list!

Now I just have the dishes and ??? a short nap after my shower before heading into work for 10 pm.

Thankfully just tonight and then two off again…

Meditations from the Mat (Day 84)…

~~the fourth niyama is svadhyaya, which means education of the self

~~the words of our teachers slowly work their way into our consciousness….often when we first read them, we may not understand…often we must wait for the circumstances of our lives to allow the words to show their meaning for us

~~our thoughts, words and deeds are informed by the words of our teachers

Things making me happy today: finally purchasing my WI plane tickets, fresh asparagus, chocolate covered espresso beans, sitting on the couch with my sweetie!


Friday, March 24, 2017

Today we had grand plans to do A LOT of errands…drop books off at the library, do a quick trip to Stop and Shop, drop off our cans/bottles at the redemption center, look at scrubs for me.

Well…all we did was drop books off at the library and then head to Stop and Shop. ¬†The weather really put a stop to our grand plans. ¬†It was rainy, cold, and just plain raw. ¬†Neither of us likes to really be out in that type of weather, so we did what we HAD to do, and no more.

And I’m okay with that!

Someday I’ll get those scrubs ūüôā

It WAS nice going shopping together with Kimm. ¬†We rarely get to do that anymore just because I tend to stop at the store after work. ¬†So wandering down the aisles together was nice ūüôā

So instead of going out in the afternoon I was able to catch up on Survivor! ¬†I really like this season so far. ¬†And I’m excited…DWTS started this week which means I will be able to watch the first episode next week!!!

I got a little frustrated at the end of the night. ¬†I wanted to purchase my ticket for visiting WI, so I was able to chat with my mom to verify the dates/times, but then when I went to actually purchase the ticket, Travelocity was SO annoying me. ¬†Even though the price was advertised as one thing, every time I went to hit the final button for purchasing the ticket it would say that the price had increased by about $40!!! ¬†WHAT!!! ¬†That’s crazy. ¬†Especially since the price listed on the page had not increased (I know because I went in SEVERAL more times to see if the price had suddenly jumped). So I skipped purchasing the ticket tonight and I’ll try tomorrow morning after work. ¬†Just felt frustrated for WASTING so much time. ¬†GRRRR!!!!

Now I’m on for two nights. ¬†Hopefully (fingers crossed) they will go by fast.

Meditations from the Mat (Day 83)…

~~yoga tells us the time is NOW

~~we have everything we need to be magnificent — we just need to allow ourselves to be who we are

~~suffering comes from our own resistance to being who we are

~~yoga teaches us to ask…what beliefs hold me back? ¬†from where does this attachment to suffering come from?

~~yoga teaches us to have faith that the time for asking questions will be temporary, the questions will be followed by answers, the answers by action, the action by growth

Things making me happy today: watching Survivor (LOVE!), situating the dates I will be going home to visit my family in WI, only having to work 2 (!!) in a row

Out and about…

Thursday, March 23, 2017

LOVE days off!!

Today we actually did something we normally don’t do very often…we got off our butts and got out of the house ūüôā

We had a 30% off coupon for Kohl’s so that is what actually inspired us to get moving. ¬†We were hoping to find some pots and pans, maybe a shower curtain…30% is nothing to laugh at!

Well…we were not successful. ¬†The pots and pans situation is dire. ¬†First of all, there was not a lot there to look at and what was there…eh. ¬†I kind of liked the Rachel Ray set, but Kimm was not in love. ¬†She kind of liked this other set (I think it was Farberware…with a really cool light blue color), but I was not in love. ¬†NEITHER set had what we really wanted…a 3 quart size pan similar to the one that we now have that we use to cook popcorn in. ¬†So…final decision…we decided to wait and look elsewhere…where, we don’t know yet, maybe Bed, Bath and Beyond???

We also failed at finding a shower curtain…nothing struck our fancy.

We DID find a dinnerware set that we both agreed on! Cream colored with a brown trim…very rustic looking! ¬†With the coupon, still expensive, but more reasonable and we got two boxes (to make a total of 8 place settings). ¬†We also both found a belt…that is a major accomplishment for me since I’ve been looking for a LONG time. ¬†The one I got was reversible…black on one side, white on the other. ¬† I like it (I especially like that it is fake leather…now cow died to give me that belt!)

After Kohl’s we headed over to Bob’s. ¬†Kimm had a 25% off coupon and she was looking for boots for mowing the lawn (more ankle stability). ¬†She was successful!

And then I wanted to stop at Old Navy because I had seen that they had a sale on jeans and I am desperate…all of mine are just looking pretty big.

NO LUCK. In fact, it was quite comical. ¬†It must just be my body shape, but all the jeans I tried on were WAY TOO BIG in the hips/thighs, but kind of tighter in the waist. ¬†Even though I tried on straight legged jeans, skinny jeans…nothing made a difference. ¬†AND can I just say … I HATE, HATE, HATE that all the jeans have that spandex in them now. ¬†I just want denim…no stretch material in my jeans. ¬†It feels SO WEIRD. ¬†HATE IT.

So we left there with no jeans.  Thankfully Kimm made the trip worth it because she got this super cute orange sweatshirt!

We were exhausted and starving at this point so we ordered a pizza and headed home.

While eating we watched a movie…The Accountant…it was good!

It was a good rest of the day, just relaxing.

Again, LOVE these days off.

Meditations from the Mat (Day 82)…

~~we must learn to trust our own judgment on spiritual matters

~~BUT we also must learn to trust others as well and learn from them…over TIME, our own wisdom awakens

~~when to practice, how to practice, what to practice, the answers will all come to us

Things making me happy today: getting out and going shopping with Kimm, watching a movie while eating pizza, finally finding a new belt, a FULL day off!

Now 2 off!

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Yay!! ¬†Made it through my three days on! ¬†Of course I’m getting a little suspicious, as we had ANOTHER code at the end of the night. ¬†Is it me? ¬†There have been way too many codes happening when I’m on. ¬†That’s an awful lot of running to codes. ¬†Thankfully, this patient made it. ¬†It was nice having last night on with my co-supervisor — just takes a lot of stress off of me…always an easier night.

And…my LOWEST weight for a long time!!!! ¬†I had almost given up hope that my weight would even go down at all anymore. ¬†But today it did and I could not believe it. ¬†I’m at that 30 lb weight loss now (since August). ¬†Slow going, but so worth it! ¬†I have at least another 30 lbs to lose, but I know I CAN do it now.

Great meal — homemade pizza. ¬† Love Wednesday nights because of that ūüôā

A nap after dinner, another nap after dishes!  And then two episodes of Queer as Folk.

A great first night off.

Meditations from the Mat (Day 81)…

~~tapas is essentially the drive to end suffering

~~tapas is simply an energy — it can work for us, or against us

~~our suffering makes us want to end our suffering

~~the will to end suffering becomes the tapas of yoga WHEN it is grounded in personal responsibility

~~the tapas of yoga is based on the idea that our suffering is caused by our REACTION to external events

~~viewed in this light, our suffering becomes our TEACHER

~~the ever-present demon becomes our ever-present teacher

~~all the yamas are possible — nonviolence, truthfulness, nonstealing, moderation, nonhoarding — all become possible

~~we always have everything we need

~~when we don’t believe this, we suffer

~~we each have our own personal trainer in our spiritual health journey in the form of our suffering

~~the greatest teacher is our constant companion…our understanding of our suffering defines the nature of our solution

Things making me happy today: done with my days on!, homemade pizza, my lowest weight!!!! (down ~ 30 lbs!!), naps, having two nights off, Queer as Folk